I think it’s best to just stay single for the next several months.

So, I’ve been out with a couple guys the past few weeks. Did the friend sex a few times. I realized that I really don’t want to start dating someone, especially a guy that I don’t already know.

There’s so much about me to tell and share with someone, that I just don’t know where to begin. The past couple of years have been crazy, but the past 41 have been crazier. Honestly, the friend sex was perfect, because we’ve known each other for awhile, but I just can’t have no-strings with that person and I have such a high sex drive, I think it was making him anxious. I don’t want that, so I just stopped pursuing it. I also don’t want to ruin whatever relationship we DO have.

Physically, I have a couple of men I can call on if need be. I also have two drawers full of toys.

But then I look ahead to the next several months, and my film needs to be my priority. I can’t let anything get in the way. Of course, having a partner to support me along the way would be nice, but it’s a lot to ask for in a new “relationship.” I’m going to be gone for a month, and that’s also not easy for a man to deal with. Unless there’s a lot of trust and a strong foundation, that trip could ruin a good thing.

So, I’m not looking to date anyone right now that doesn’t already know something about me. I just don’t think it’s fair, especially right now.

There’s this one guy…

There’s this one guy who stares at me.

There’s this one guy who makes me blush.

There’s this one guy who makes me nervous.

There’s this one guy who freaks me out.

There’s this one guy who makes me shake.

There’s this one guy who makes me feel shy.

There’s this one guy who makes me self-conscious.

There’s this one guy who I can never wait to see.

There’s this one guy who almost made me jump out of my car to run out and kiss him.

There’s this one guy who I have to wear red lipstick around because it prevents me from kissing him and getting it all over my face.

There’s this one guy who I spend extra time on styling my hair for because I know how he likes it.

There’s this one guy who makes me melt when I see him with his dog.

There’s this one guy who knows me more than most people.

There’s this one guy who makes me laugh.

There’s this one guy I tell almost everything to.

There’s this one guy whose beauty makes my eyes water.

There’s this one guy with a smile that breaks my heart.

There’s this one guy who supports me, and I don’t know why.

There’s this one guy.